Straight to the Source : My 5-Meo-DMT experience

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Wow! What a mind-blowing experience. The following post is going to discuss a little bit about what 5-MeO-DMT is and my experience with it in the jungle. This was the one of the deepest experiences I have ever had in my life. It was so profound. 5-MeO-DMT is one of the most powerful psychedelic substance known on Earth. I have always been very curious to try 5-MeO-DMT but I wasn’t sure if I was ready for such an intense experience. I have read many experiences with 5-MeO-DMT and the majority of them said they met with God, became one with everything, went to a void space, or something along those lines. I felt like there was a lot I could learn from this substance.

 Before I go into explaining my experience, I am going to explain a little bit about what 5-MeO-DMT is. The full name for 5-MeO-DMT is 5-Methoxy-N, N-Dimethyltryptamine. It belongs to the psychedelic class of tryptamines. Tryptamines are very similar in molecular structure to serotonin and are able to produce psychoactive effects by using the serotonin network in the body. All though that is the scientific reasoning of why we experience altered states of consciousness when we take these substances, there is much more to it than just chemicals in the brain. Psychedlics are a class of substances that are able induce visions and altered states of consciousness in a user. They are shown to have profound effects, and can be used to treat a variety of mental illnesses. For more on psychedelics you can check out more posts on my blog here. 5-MeO-DMT is found naturally (in trace amounts) in human bodily fluids such as urine, blood, and cerebrospinal fluid. It is also produced in the retina and pineal gland.

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5-MeO-DMT is an entheogen that comes from many different types of plants, the most common being Anadenanthera Peregrina (yopo or cohoba) and Virola Theiodora. It also comes from a toxin secreted from the skin of the Bufo Alvarius toad, commonly known as the Colorado River Toad or the Sonoran Desert Toad. The Bufo Alvarius toad is commonly found in northern Mexico and the southern United States. It is the only known animal that is able to secret a psychedelic substance. This is where the famous myth comes from that if you lick the right toad, you can get enlightened. Just a heads up before you start licking toads, this is purely a myth and the majority of people who have licked toads have become hospitalized or die because, in the case of the Bufo Alvarius toad, there are many toxins that are harmful to humans that the toad secrets along with the 5-MeO-DMT, so don’t go around licking toads to get enlightened!

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 I find it very interesting how 5-MeO-DMT is not new to humanity, it has been around for hundreds of years, maybe even thousands. It was first formally reported being used in a snuff form by indigenous people in South America in the 15th century by Friar Ramón Pané, who reported to Christopher Columbus, but there is evidence of it being used in northern Chile in the 8th century. The South Americans used it as medicine and used it to help them connect with spirits for guidance. Some research actually indicates that ayahuasca, the powerful entheogenic brew, along with many other plant medicines were discovered because of the intuition the shamans were able to develop with the use of these ancient 5-MeO-DMT infused snuffs. It was first synthesized by chemists Toshio Hoshino and Kenya Shimodair in 1936.

 I smoked 5-MeO-DMT when I was at Arkana, a beautiful ayahuasca retreat center in the Amazon jungle. This was my first experience with 5-MeO-DMT. I was feeling a lot of love and clarity that day. I had just done two ayahuasca ceremonies and the ayahuasca made me feel very grounded within myself. My head space was extremely clear. I was feeling very connected with the jungle and the people around me. I think this directly correlated to my experience. Arkana is a place full of love and there was a no better place that I could try this substance for the first time. To find out more about my experience at Arkana and my ayahuasca ceremonies click here.

 Below is my experience with 5-MeO-DMT. I do not remember everything that happened because the experience was so enormous and so out of this world that when I came back to reality, I could only grasp parts of it. 

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My Experience

I was on the fence of trying the Sapo medicine (5-MeO-DMT). I was not sure if it was going to help or hinder the ayahuasca process I was currently in at Arkana. As the time came closer I was more open to trying it. On the day of, it just felt right to do it or right not to do it. So I just went with the flow and decided to go for it. My intention for the ceremony was love. The ceremony started with Cecilia (the facilitator of the ceremony) explaining a little bit about 5-MeO-DMT. I was in a small maloka with some of the people from the retreat center. There was five us actually doing the ceremony and the rest were spectating. I volunteered to be the first one to go. I found the way she was going to administer the 5-MeO-DMT very intriguing. There was a glass vase with a hose attached to it. She put about 15 mg of 5-MeO-DMT in the vase and heated up the vase with the blowtorch. The vase filled with smoke. I took a deep inhale and a deep exhale. After my lungs were empty, I started to inhale the smoke from the vase. It wasn’t that harsh, I just inhaled as much as I could. I was swallowing while I was inhaling. It felt as if I was inhaling for a long time. I felt it come on strong while I was still inhaling.

It got to the point of where the hose and even my lungs inhaling all disappeared. I remember lying down in a very sedative state but I have no recollection of exhaling or even if I finished the smoke in the vase. It was very similar to the feeling you get when a doctor gives you anesthesia right before a surgery to knock you out for a couple of hours, but surprisingly my awareness was not decreasing, it was actually increasing exponentially. I could feel it all through my body but at the same time, my body was not there. I felt as if my body became everything. I went straight to the source of the love within me. During this experience, there was no recollection of time. I am not entirely sure if the order of events described below is in sequence.

 I remember I was basking in an ocean of love. It was like I was moving through this ocean but I was completely still at the same time. There was no me, or you could say that everything was me. It was intense now that I think about it, but during the experience, there was no difference between something that was intense or not intense. It just was. I remember saying “Its okay” over and over. I felt as if everything the way it is, is okay. I remember I was feeling an extremely deep trust in everything. It was like anyone could do anything to me and I would still be okay. It didn’t matter, I am always okay. I felt as if there was absolutely nothing wrong with the world. I was really okay with the experience I was going through and I was okay with everything that happened in my life and will happen in my life. I saw that there was a great power, a great wisdom, and an infinite love that arises with being okay with everything that is happening right now in the present moment. It felt as if this feeling of being okay with everything was merging with my being. I remember there was so much love I was moaning. I kept saying out loud “Love” over and over again. I also kept saying “I love the jungle”, “I love you all”. There was so much love coming to me and coming out of me, which both felt the same. I saw that everything is just made up of love. I saw that everything is myself. As someone was putting blankets under my feet, fanning me, and spraying aqua de flourida on me, I felt as if it was me doing this. It was very odd because a part of me knew that it was the helpers but I felt like it was just me doing this to myself.

 I saw the more present you are the more love you will feel. There is no past or future, but sometimes we project ourselves out of the present moment. The present moment is everything and is the only thing that exists. The only way you can project yourself in the past or the future is if you get lost in your own thoughts.

 I saw the jungle was so pure. I saw that the jungle was one of the greatest teachers. It teaches us how to deal with things and helps us grow, all while taking care of us. I saw that this deep love I was experiencing is present in every single individual. Even though everyone is on a different level of growth, everyone has an infinite love within them. Random insights were coming to me. One of them was to read the book “Power VS Force”. I saw so much love for the people around me. For everyone I saw; my family, my friends, the people here; I felt so much love towards them. I remember saying I love you to everyone in the maloka and hearing them say it back. I then said I love hearing you say I love you back. There was just an abundance of love. The music Cecilia was playing really helped the trip progress.

  I saw the wisdom in having no preferences. Having no preferences is what the deepest form of unconditional love is. I saw how powerful the wisdom of guru I follow, named Sadh Guru, was. I saw that the amount of love he was giving to the world was absolutely enormous and was so grateful that the love he spreads was able to touch me. I also saw how much love the shamans and helpers at the retreat center showed. The more love these people showed me and the more open I was to it, the deeper the love I would feel in myself. It was absolutely incredible. I saw that it didn’t matter for people to experience this because this love is always with them even if they are not conscious of it.

 I remember Cecilia was pouring water in my mouth at one point. It was the most refreshing thing I have ever experienced. I could feel the purity of the water. I remember after I was coming back to normal reality again, I got up and I gave everyone a hug who was witnessing the ceremony in the maloka. It was incredible. Tears of love were streaming down my face. I could feel everyone so deeply. I went for a walk around the center and I felt as if I was air. I could feel my breath so clearly. I was a lot more settled down at this point. I came back to the maloka and lied down until the effects fully calmed down.

 This is the way I can explain it, but it is not what happened. 5-MeO-DMT is a different reality and you can only know what that reality is like when you are in that realm. This is the best way I can explain it in this reality I am living in now. It was the most love I have ever experienced in my life. If you do ever want to try this substance please have respect for it and do thorough research before using it. One thing I know for sure after this experience is that I am always feeling this love, it will always be with me, it is in every one of us and it is infinite, even though I may not be fully conscious of it anymore.

Lots of Love to everyone!

-Amar

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